In my father's eyes.

Beauty is happiness.

Once upon a time i didn't believe i was worth anything or anyone would want to get to know me. I'd be told many times that i was beautiful, not by many, but i didn't believe them. But then God spoke to me and told me i was beautiful. "fearfully and wonderfully made" psalm 139 is one of the biggest encouragements in my life.

God made me. and God made me perfectly. wow. God says we should praise him for that. All glory should go to the maker. the creator who see's us as perfect in his sight.

We should never doubt our creator's love for us or doubt our worth, "he knit us together within the womb" and his works are amazing!

My mum was listening to Chris Evans on breakfast radio and it woke her up cos he said "everyday and everyone is special. This day will never happen again, the things you do today will not happen exactly like this again"

Keep this in mind. Live your life knowing true beauty is God and that God made us so we must to be beauty in his sight.

I'm not ashamed.

After spending a weekend with one of my closest friends, God revealed to me two things.

"The foolishness of God is greater than any man's wisdom" and

"its the word of a testimony that brings people to the victory"

My new aim, to be on fire for God.

God knows how i think because for 33 years he came down to earth and was one of us, he then invites us to think like him. Eternal thinking not temporary thinking. Viewing the world in a new light. Seeing past this short time on earth to the ultimate aim in life, the kingdom of heaven and being with God forever. so why then is it that when routine sets in, Jesus gets pushed out of that routine? He brings victory. i am in that routine for him. so what am i doing for him? for his glory.

Firstly, we owe all our gratitude and thanksgiving to God. Sometimes it seems like i get more excited, thankful and relieved over a cup of tea and a biscuit after school compared to an astounding offer of eternal life and complete forgiveness due to the sacrifice God made.

Secondly, 'greater things are yet to be done in this city" i honestly believe that God has big big plans for my city. my school. I'm already seeing friends who i'd never have imagined softening there hearts, accepting Jesus as friend and saviour. God isn't a one of God, his aim is to seek and save the lost. And God wants to use me. "let your will be done in me".

Thirdly, Its impossible to be a "secret christian" We overcome and are protected by the blood of the lamb. What more of a reason do i need to stand up for him in school? I'm completely safe in the arms of God. That doesn't mean witnessing will run smoothly, it'll be anything but that, however i need courage and strength from our living God to do this.

What gifts and talents do you have that God could be using to bring more people into his kingdom?

Lord, be enough for me.

Christmas went fabulously. All my close friends were in happy relationships and we all shared lovely romantic christmas stories. However within the first week of new year and going back to school, 3 of my closest friends ended it with their boyfriends.

At the moment, i am with the most beautiful guy. He is kind, loving, respectful, caring, funny, gorgeous, weird and has a passion for Christ. I could not ask for anything more from anyone.

All these relationships ending at first worried me. The "what ifs" and paranoia started because i couldn't bare the thought of not being with my boyfriend.

But then i remembered, the reason i am with him in the first place is because God placed him in my life at this time because we need each other. God has a purpose for our lives and at the moment his purpose is for us to be together for him. And the reason i can trust and know this is because of my love for God. Stronger than any love that i have felt or will feel for anyone. This passion and inexplainable feeling i have towards Jesus is amazing. He is where i first search for comfort and love, and i know every time i seek him..i find him. Because of this confidence in Jesus' love i can find his love in many things. People, places, art, music. Its not the same love, but a human love. A love that attempts to be the "loved with everlasting love" that God gives to each one of us.

I'm not scared of the future, and i won't try to second guess it. Because God has planned each day out for me. He knows what is to come, and the decisions i will make. He'll know if i'll last with my boyfriend and he knows what we'll do together to live out Jesus' love for others.

Now i've found my true source of love from the true "love" i can find love in someone special. and i do. I'm in love with this guy. and will be for a very very long time. I'm grateful to God for him and even in our sometimes trying circumstance, i can be thankful. Because Jesus has overcome the grave. He experienced true suffering and pain. My trials are quite pathetic in comparison. I praise God for everything he gives me. Lord, be enough for me. May he be enough for you.